A dyeing breed??!

Hello?  Anyone out there??  I feel like bloggers are disappearing! Is facebook and twitter taking over our lives? I remember back in the days when mail and e-mail was a big thing! All these companies come out with new amazing technology to help us keep up with the world! But we have to ask ourselves are we being blind by all this technology? Are we loosing our social skills? I was watching the news today and saw a report on people txting and walking, I know they tell you not to txt and drive but now just walking and txting is deadly! There was a man txting and right in front of him a stroller falls into train traks! Its mind blowing what you can miss! How many hours are spent on our phones or our facebook? How much money do we spend a year just on our smart phone bills? It shocked me when I looked at my bills from last year... im not saying technology is a bad thing I think its amazing what we can do! But I think we need to manage the time we spend just tweeting or posting on facebook... and starting something more useful, something we can use in the future! Work on your hobbies! Go for hikes or a walk or run! It will open your eyes! You can slow down and just enjoy life!

People call it valentines day, I call it Tuesday.

Chocolates, flowers, and a whole lot of I Love You! Its a great day for some and a sad day for others, and then there's people like me... like the idea but see it as just another day.  I find happiness in everyday I don't need one day out of the whole year to recognize those I love, I feel like its role play you know? Im happy to see others happy! But one thing that bugs me about this day is the complaints! The people who have to let the whole world they are unhappy! See valentines day is not just a day for the lovers its also a day for the haters.  To all the people out there who didn't get a valentine I wish you a happy Tuesday! And every day after that! You are loved, you don't need a box of chocolate (that will make you think your fat after you eat it) or a rose (that will die the next morning) to show you that! If your feeling sad and lonely go do something for a widow, sit and have a conversation with them! No one should be alone on valentines day! So don't just sit around and mope about not getting a valentine... the best you can do is give!

Happy Tuesday, <3

On a Wednesday morning.

Its quite out, nothing but a cold breeze dancing through the branches as I lay in bed waiting eager like a little kid on christmas morning, restless with my thoughts racing, oh how I wish sleep would come again but I know I've lost the battle, helpless and feeling defeat my mind moves to different things but my mind keeps moving back to one thought.  Fear, I fear for my friends and family I don't know what it is but it wont let me be... as this anxiety like restless leg wears me down, I feel trapped inside myself it gets harder to breath! I long so badly to run even the thought is comforting to me, only a few of my friends find freedom with running, I don't know what it is... maybe its the wind in my face or the abuse to my feet smacking the pavement with each step or the fight for breath making me realize how precious every breath is, but all those things are forgotten till its just your body and mind, that's where the real battle is that's where you find how strong you really are, and who you really are its the true therapy.  There's nothing I'd rather be doing... but im trapped with no running shoes or gear so I revert to the ony other therapy I know, talking getting out so it doesn't eat me up and consume me.  I don't know why im having these attacks all I know is I fear for the ones I love I fear something bad will happen.